Waiting for a New Dawn to Break .......

2011 Tuesday, Feb 8, Sunny Skies.

I started this blog as a mean to escape.

Escape from the onslaught of pain I am constantly feeling from the passing of my dearest and most beloved Papa.

He'd left for a better place, back in the loving palm of Buddha, on Christmas Eve, 24th December, 2010.

His passing was extremely unexpected that it left no room for preparation ~ emotionally, I was a wreck. My journey since then, albeit short with just over a month, had seemed so long, so surreal, I am still learning to accept that he is gone. Writing about him in past tense is extremely difficult as well. My train of thoughts are not doing very well either, it is still all over the place.

This is when the ' what ifs ' and ' I wished I had ' start setting in....... and they are making themselves right at home in my heart, with my conscience so weighted down that I find it hard to breathe at times.

My mind kept playing back memories of our time spent together, 'if' there were times and places that I'd not fulfilled my promises to him.... and I found aplenty.

But, a Dad, being a Dad, especially MY Dad, never once took me to tasks. For him, it was enough that I had had the thought to do whatever I was supposed to do for or with him. If I am able to fulfill them, then he'll be more than happy, but if due to whatever circumstances that it's not done, it's ok for him too, because what matters most is the thoughts that count. And so he says...

Therefore, this blog is lovingly dedicated to my confidante, my friend and most of all, my beloved Papa whom I had been extremely blessed to have shared 35 glorious years with.

I want to put down in writing of all the things and lessons in life he had taught me and shared with me, of all the glory he had once chanced upon and achieved in abundance, and of all the stories he had told me, which until today, I still hold all and every single one of them very close and dear to my heart.

I just hope I am not too late in sharing his story.... and mine too.

Butterfly kisses, Su Yi